NEGATIVE....

I don't know since when that my blog was full of negativity and rage!!!!!! I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW. WHY IS NOTHING GOING RIGHT. We finally moved and I was prepared for the worst. BUT NO, THANKS FOR MAKING ME REALISE THAT THINGS CAN BE MUCH WORSE THAN YOU EXPECT. the move took 18 hours, from 9:30am to 2:30am the next day. AND THEY BROKE SO MUCH STUFF. THE FREAKING APARTMENT IS SO SMALL. I HAVE ALL THESE NEGATIVITY BOTTLED UP INSIDE ME. THE WASHING MACHINE WAS LEAKING SO OUR BRAND NEW CARPET IS DAMAGED. OUR HOUSE IS LIKE A RUBBISH DUMP. ITS SO FAR FROM EVERYTHING. I NEED LOTS AND LOTS OF TIME TO ADAPT TO THIS NEW ENVIRONMENT BUT MY THESIS WONT LET ME. MY DRAFT IS DUE NEXT WEEK AND WHAT HAVE I DONE. IM WASTING MY TIME BY BLOGGING BUT WHAT HAS TO BE DONE HAS TO BE DONE. I AM SICK. I HATE LIFE. I HATE. I DONT WANT TO SPREAD MY NEGATIVITY TO ANYONE SO I HAVE TO PRETEND TO BE HAPPY. YESTERDAY I FELT SO HELPLESS. I NEEDED A FRIEND. BUT NOONE WAS AROUND. I NEEDED SLEEP BUT I HAD NO BED. I NEEDED TO GO HOME BUT I HAD NO HOME KEYS. DO YOU GET ME. I AM SO ANGRY. EVERYONE AT HOME IS SO ANGRY BECAUSE HOME IS A MESS. WHERE IS HOME. I HAVE NO HOME. I AM NOW AT UNI AND I FEEL SOMEWHAT RELIEVED. WHY DOES UNI FEEL BETTER THAN STAYING AT HOME. EVERYONE IS JUST RAGING AT EACH OTHER AT HOME BECAUSE WE ARE ALL SO STRESSED. JASMINE HAS TRIALS ON THURSDAY. I HAVE MY THESIS DRAFT. BUT NOONE UNDERSTANDS. HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO WRITE MY DAMN THESIS DRAFT. EVERYONE JUST THINKS IT'LL BE OK. BUT IT WON'T. BECAUSE IT'S SO MUCH HARDER THAN WHAT I EXPECTED. I NEED TO RELEASE MY ANGER AND STRESS AND TEARS. I NEED TO LET IT GO. STUPID TRIPVIEW LIED TO ME AND SAID THERE WAS AN 891 FROM CENTRAL TO UNI AT 2:40PM. WHERE DID THE DAMN BUS GO. WASTE MY TIME. I AM SO TIRED. I RATHER STAY AT UNI AND SLEEP THAN GO HOME. I TRIED TO THINK OF ALL MY FRIENDS WHO COULD SAVE ME YESTERDAY. AND THEN I REALISED THAT IN TIMES OF NEED, ISAAC WAS THE ONE. HE SAVED ME. I WAS COMFORTABLE ENOUGH WITH OUR FRIENDSHIP TO CALL HIM TO SAVE THE STRANDED ME, TAKE ME BACK TO HIS HOME WHERE I JUST COLLAPSED. I FELT SO BAD BUT HE REASSURED ME THAT EVERYTHING WAS OK, AND I COULD FIND HIM WHENEVER. I AM REALLY STRESSED. I EVEN HAVE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS. WHO CAN HELP ME. THINGS CAN GET A LOT WORSE. 2013 I REALLY HATE YOU. WHERE'S MY 2014. I WANT SMILEY ME. I WANT OPTIMISTIC ME. I WANT CRYSTAL BACK. OK. I IS CALM. GOODBYE.